I’m supposed to be enjoying the life that I have right now, but deep down, why do I still feel lonely?
People are right. The more you get, the more you want. When I was young, I was a very calculating person when it came to romantic relationships.
If my potential partner didn’t come from a decent background, wasn’t highly educated or sexually compatible, I wouldn’t even bother talking to them.
Thanks to having a meticulous life plan that I drew for myself, I met a suitable partner who is now my husband. My husband is, without any question, a wonderful man.
But lately, I feel like I have changed. The way of thinking that I had when I was young is no longer the same.
I’ve started having feelings for someone who is inferior to my husband in many aspects, whether it be appearance, personality or background.
He has a great job, but he is also a promiscuous womanizer who gambles every weekend. I tried not to think about him, but after a few weeks of meeting him, I couldn’t get him out of my head.
I have no idea what is wrong with me, I feel like I’m no longer the logical person I once was. I think I’m letting my emotions get the better of me.
I still do charity work every weekend to regain my conscience, but I feel like I’m being challenged by this storm inside me. I can’t feel peace at all even though my family is so happy right now.
What should I do?
